Monday, December 25, 2006

Pushed me to far!

what bussiness did you have
pushing words out of my mouth
making up stories just to bother me
then not liking my reply
what was inside was to be kept inside
not to come outside and scar
you made it hard for me to hide
you made me go so far
until this day I was trying hard
to do my job as a friend
I mean with limits that we had
then today you pushed it to end
you and I were less than a friendship
Just people who talk to each other
they talk sometimes and know some details
but they don't understand one another
you know I was planing to keep it that way
then be by your side if you need me one day
but now thats not happening after what's been said
I can't take back what I actually meant
you should have never pushed me to get my feelings out
but to be fair you were trying to hurt me THAT i don't even doubt!!!

Thursday, December 21, 2006

I Love you because...

I love you because you are you
I love you because you care
I love you because how you make me feel

and because you treat me fair
I love you because you love me
though you see our different sides
I love you because you treat me right
and my flaws you dont despise
I love you because when you want me to change
it is for my own good

and I love you because you are so pure
not just because I could
although we fight alot and shout
I know you love me that I don't doubt
You really mean alot to me
and together always I hope we'll be
Yes I do know that our differences are big
and that it will be hard thats a sure thing
but we won't force eachother to change
we'll just accept it and we will not rage
we will try to find our common ground
and with a strong will I'm sure it will be found
a moderate solution to our critical quarels
will make us more happy but we have to settle
I see your good side since I can't make you change
do the same thing for me I know I can be strange!
If we just accept it and if we understand
we will live happily I do know that!
and if I have no reasons to be in love with you
I would still Love you I know that is true!




Thursday, December 7, 2006

Relationships have tricks!.. WRITTEN(22/2/2006)

You fall in love
You get together
You think that's it
that now you're better
You think your job in that is done
that you have really found the one
but problems must find you
they come on their own
and you always think it's the end of the world
You keep on wondering what you should do
and then start to think that they'll never be through
but they come and go
they're a part of your life
that's something I know
and for the husband and wife

they only get bigger and harder to fix
but then you're older you know
RELATIONSHIPS have tricks!

Faaaaaaaallinggg in LOVEE... WRITTEN(15/12/2005)

How can you miss someone
who's always at the back of your mind
how can you be addicted
to talking on the phone at night
how can you feel so wrong

when everything's almost right
how can you be so ready to cry
though there has been no fight

my comfort depends on your call
my happiness becomes so true
I think my heart is set to fall
DEEPLY in LOVE with youuu!!!

I can't believe that it's been a year.. WRITTEN (5/12/2005)

In my life I tell you I've been through much
I've been put in places that were really rough
non of those experiences taught me about life
as much as that last one touched me inside
ofcourse since my childhood I've chaged alot
I refied and managed some flaws that I've got
but seriously I can't believe that in that last year
I totally changed I'm not even me
the person that was me is no longer here
some memories are left the bases are clear
but seriously I'm practically a whole different me
I'm changed but I dont know to which of the extremes
maybe its good for me maybe its bad
I'm more open minded I do know that
but is it for better or is it for worse
am I blessed or under a blinding curse
but all in all I'm amazed in fear
I'm ASTONISHED believe me I'm being sincere
I can hardly believe that it's been a year!!!

Sunday, December 3, 2006

If I should count on you!

If I should count on you...
a thought worth redeeming
if you are who I think you are
If I should trust my feelings
I want to believe that I should
what would you do if I would?
would you hurt me or break my heart
like people before you did
will you stop loving me one day
then say you couldn't commit
well I don't know what I should do
when people don't seem like they are
I mean giving my whole heart to you
or will you eventualy make me cry...
so thats why it's all I am asking myself
If I should count on you
you are like a dream i hope what you seem
is what is really true!

You won't look back..WRITTEN( 19/6/2006)

You won't look back at what we had
You're just too proud to see
You are too blinded by your mind
You can't let your heart be
You seem to be moving forward
but infact you're moving back
You think you know it all
but you're not at all on track
I know that you won't miss me
I'm on your mind no more
and if you one day call me
you don't want it like before
when I was yours you moved along
and climbed alot of steps
you learned alot about yourself
god's light you did accept
now that I'm gone you think you're free
just coz there is no me
but no just listen coz i'll say what you clearly don't see

all the hills that you have climbed
all the bumps you passed in roads

it's like you found a button to rewind
and make you unaccomplish your goals
move forward in your view as long as you think you're free
but infact you are not free at all, but I hope you'll be happy!

Thursday, November 23, 2006

ابسط حلم..WRITTEN 10/10/06

لأنني اعتزلت الاحلام و تقبلت الحقيقة
لأنني تركت الالآم و مشاعري الرقيقة
لقد توقفت عن التفكير بقلبي
و بدأت الشعور بعقلي
و نسيت ما كنت فيه قبل أن احكم نفسي
أريد أن أكون كما لم أكن من قبل
أريد أن تكون في من القوة ان اعبر عن فكري المستقل
أن أقدر على الحياة وحدي
أن استطيع الاستمرار بدون احد يساعدني
أن استقل بذاتي عن كيان كاد ان يغرقني
اياً كان من كان في الكيان يشاركني
اريد ان اترك خلفي تفاؤلي المجنون
اريد أن ارى كل شىء حقاً كما يكون
اريد ان يسعى ورائي من يريد البقاء معي
اريد ان يحارب من اجلي من يرغب في رفقتي
اريد أن اشعر ان حبي صعب الاكتساب
وأن يشعر رفيقي بقيمتي في الحياة
أن اكتسب ذكاء لم أكن اعرفه
أن اكون شخصاً يبحث عن هدفه
لا اريد ان اكون ضعيفة
لا أريد أن اشغل بالي في كل دقيقة
أريد فقط راحة البال ونقاء القلب في الهوى
اريد فقط الاسترخاء
اريد أن اشعر بسببي في البقاء

My heart of glass.. WRITTEN (23/11/2006)

I’ve got a heart of glass
And a mind made of stone
A will strong in appearance
But weak when put to work
The glass was before shattered
The stone could hardly move
Mending the glass was difficult
Stone’s status has improved
My broken glass still has its scars
It still can break if it’s held hard
It scars do show, they spoil each rinse
They spoil each cleansing for drops are despised
Some new interventions that might be so welcomed
Are asked to re fix the scars that where rendered
Because if they don’t as soon as they press
The glass will pop and then they’ll feel depressed
The shattered glass pieces in their hands will hurt them
And my little glass heart will be broken again
Then my mind made of stone will become of metal
And my weakened force will be buried within…

hopeless romance ( ultimately fiction)..WRITTEN(7/6/2006)

I saw her today from the window of my car
Her hands were shaking helplessly her eyes were drifting far
The tears were running down her cheeks
She looked like a mess
I wanted to open my arms wide and hold her then we'd kiss
I kept watching her sitting still in my place
I wondered what she'd do if she only saw my face
Would I bring her more pain than the pain she's already got
Or will her beautiful teary eyes remind me of what I forgot
Either way I wont begin to risk her pain or mine
I just wanted to know one thing is it for me she's crying
Hasn't the scars that I've left been already healed
Does she still remember my words remember how it feeled
MY questions are selfish and harsh
I'm the one who broke her heart
I'm the one who let her go
and she asked me back and I said NO!
I almost drove away although I wanted to stay

But her eyes caught my eyes
and she didnt look surprised
Through her tears she simply smiled
She rolled down her window and looked at me
In a faint voice she said:" hey long time no see.."
She was being friendly after all what I had done
She said common help me you've been always the one
I couldnt believe she remembered the good times
she let go of all the times that I told her lies
I said:" I'm here for you like I've never been,
can you please just forgive me for what I put you in?"
She said:"I've always believed in you and I will always do,
I see the light inside you and I'll help it come through"
In my arms I held her and together we drove away
I will always be gratful for god's angel who stayed...

was for me... NOW dedicated to you sis!=>.. WRITTEN JULY 2006

She sings her self to sleep
As her wounds are very deep
Just what else could she do
She still loves him its true
She remembers his smell
It just makes her feel unwell
The pain becomes so real
She can't stop the way she feels
She knows she should be strong
That her weakness is so wrong
She decides to save herself
Store her feelings on a shelf
She started to believe
There's more she could achieve
She began to see herself worthy of someone else
She deserves a guy who sees her right
He'd give her love and for her fight
He'd know she's special
He'd see the truth
He'd comfort her and pains he'd sooth
But for now she has to let go
She has to be certain
And her worth she has to know
Some other guy will come along
Who's more perfect and he'd belong
He would give her a happy life
And then ask her to be his wife...

My first thought on blogspot

Living in this world you kind of understand that you are not living your pains alone... that with ever sigh of pain you let out someone else in this world has let out that same sigh out of the same pain; this person could be on the other side of the planet or just a few blocks away... that's why I found the need to share my expolartions, my perspective, my view about certain situations some feelings and the need to share my discoveries the way i see them maybe someone else can see my thoughts differently or more openly than I did... I've read amazing thoughts all around the blogspots that changed my view so I thought maybe my thoughts would help someone else enter a world they did not know...
P.S. Thank you yousy for that idea (adiny 3amalt blog w ba2eit ganbek:P)