A grown up!!!

I was going home the other day
The streets were really crowded, but it was ok
I was looking out the window at the people around me
Watching everyone thinking how to be happy
Then came by my window a guy in a tie
He was driving this fancy car looking ready to fly
Full of ambition, has future dreams
But what caught my attention is how young he seems
He could easily pass for a guy my age
Then I thought he’s got a license that’s really strange!
Suddenly I realized that I’ve got one too
I said “oh my god! He’s probably twenty two”
22 is really, so close to my age
Then I realized that soon I could be engaged
Believe me I am not saying a bunch of weird things
By the time my granny was 18 she had a little kid!
And that’s when it hit me that I actually grew up!
That now the little babies think of me as their top!
Oh my goodness now “A grown up” is what I am
It’s a few more years till they start calling me m’am!
I found it very hard to believe
That though almost a lady little I have achieved!
Hahaha! Almost a lady that’s very funny
It seems like just yesterday I was playing with my bunny!
I don’t know what I should say or what I have to do
This poem is probably pointless but it is a break through!
I’ve reached a decision and that’s how it goes:
That no matter how old my body grows
Inside myself Ill remain a child…
Ill be this little baby girl dreaming to be a bride.

Born to be me...

And it’s all because I was born to be me... not to be them…
And they were never to be me... nor will he give up him…
I know now today
That this is it for me
that if it’s meant to be
I’ll one day be happy
I know now that I
might never one day fly
I know now that things
are hard given how hard we try
Living in a fairy tale
is no longer my case
I realize that there is fate
and this truth I will embrace
I opened myself to life and love
and I learned about pain
and learned that above
All my plans and all my dreams
There is reality that isn't like it seems
Now I know that in life
There must be suffering
And if the world gives me one thing
there’s something it isn’t offering
I will just cope with what I have
I won’t despise what I can’t grasp
I will live with my fears and dreams
Hoping that life will be happier than it seems
All I can do is keep being my self
Coz I was born to be me and that is how I help
Being me may hurt some people and may help others
Being me may ease some pains and others it may bother
Being me is healing
Being me is painful
Being me is for me
and to change it would be regretful
Coz if I push myself to change
what god gave me, I'd be in a cage
And then I’d lose my inner me
If the change’s not coming from within me
I will live alone
If that is why I was born
I will try to find my message
and I don’t want the whole package
I will try to find my peace
And in my heart, I know I'll find ease…