can't we be free together?

You don’t have to see what I see
Nor do I have to share your views
We can live together in harmony
If each of us only knows
We don’t have to change
We have to understand
In order to be happy inside
We should stop our demands
You and I can be different
With parts that complete each other
You can have a view
I can have another
Some ideas won’t fit with mine
But those ideas I won’t undermine!
We don’t have to be exactly the same
We can share our life without sharing a name
As long as the basics to the concept are one
We can be together, that’s where we begun
You know me inside
Why don’t u trust my heart?
I know you know the base of me
I know we aren’t apart
I don’t want a trap
Nor do I want a gap
If that’s how it will be
I don’t want it for me
I want us to be happy forever
And stuck I don’t want to be
Can’t we just be free but together?
Can’t we both see what we want to see?!

she is losing herself ( why all the good goes bad)

she is losing her self
she is losing her sight
she is losing her life
she is in a bad state of mind
she refuses to listen
to what I have to say
she doesnt want to talk to me
she thinks she is ok
she let me down
when I never thought she could
she let me down
and she won't admit she would
she thinks she is the victim
to all the human crimes
she thinks she has to fall in love
and she's not picking the guy
she won't believe my words
and she won't believe my heart
she thinks I am misjudging her
and thats why we're growing apart
she's acting like miss perfect
and I hate to see her that way
I want her to clearly see it
but she won't let me today
and if its not today
nor tomorrow not ever
she will not be ok
and I'd lose her forever
so if she wants to be blind
and leave her self behind
I won't from her hide
coz I see her soul
she is my bestfirend
it would hurt to see it end
but she won't lose me because
I just won't let her fall!
may god clear up her state
and make her appreciate
what she clearly has
and stop her from going bad!

I dont know!( I am confused)

I met him a month or two ago
maybe even a year
I knew him in those past few days
and I'm really happy he's here
he makes me feel good about myself
he knows how to treat me right
to get my words into his soul
I really don't have to fight
he helps me be my inner me
I dont have to follow my whims
what if I just met the guy of my dreams!
what if that is really him
what if thats my one chance
to make a dream come true
and then you dont feel the same
and my fate is to fall for you
maybe god wants to punish me
for being with all the wrong hearts
but whenever I talk to you about things
we end up talking about her
you seem to love her deeply
or atleast u think u do
and I dont want to fool myself
into believing that my dream came true!
you understand me when I talk
and find my goals high and strong
I see your clean soul and ur deepness
and you never did anything wrong
I am not ready to get into things
I dont know if I can follow through
well you call me ur sister alot
maybe thats who I am to you
and anyway I have to stop myself
from hurting myself again
I also am so worried
to be fooling myself into fitting in
pretending I found the guy for me
and then everything goes bad
and if anything happens or not
am treating him as my pal
and whatever happens ill be glad
either way we'll be friends as long as we can....

A 100 years' extacy or eternity?!... WRITTEN(28/2/2006)

You're high you're flying
high above the sky
You think that you've got it
that you're living your life
You think that you aren't missing out on anything
but you're missing out on what your life may bring
You think you're gaining everything that you can possibly have
that you wouldn't have missed a single thing when u become an old man
but by being high you already are not living your full life
you're preventing your inner soul from floating up above
so tell me what's important here;
our happiness of now or an afterlife of tears???!!
Tell me is a 100 years' extacy worth more than eternity!

be invisible for a while 16/1/2007

I want to write
but I don't have much to express
I want to talk
but I dont know who I want to listen
im not so happy not quiet sad
not heart broken not feeling bad
I'm strong but weak
I'm relieved but in pain
I dont want to be with you though I want you back again
god this is really confusing
in fact it is quite amusing
WOW its expected
you see me that way
yeah its true what I suspcted
that you're perfectly ok
god I just want to take a break
be invisible for a while
so I wouldn't have to be fake
live everything like its on a trial
not give or take
be alone just be awake
I want to be able to live with my concience
being ok not doing all that non sense
though I want to live a dream
i want to believe the world is better than it may seem
I hope it lets me
I hope I wont be again decieved
I wish that my only future thing
will make me feel relieved

green is the new pink!

They say green is the new pink
They say that when in love you should frown
They say that you should not think
That laughing is a sign that you're down
They say all those crazy things and they think it's being sane
well I do really think that things will never be the same again
you say I'm not the girl for you
you say our differences are real big
I knew you weren't what I wanted
but it didn't mean for me a thing
Yes I wanted to be with you
no matter how many fights we had
you say you'll always love me
you said things that made me mad
you apoligized for ever hurting me
said you were starting to change
but why change away fromme you could have done it here beside me
you could have gotten rid of your rage
you u made me leave
and though I left it still hurts so much
and even if they say blue is the new brown
I'll still cry when I'm down
Smile when I'm in love
and believe in what I'm thinking of
I'll always be me
inside I'm always free
might be flying yet in pain
but I'll be able to love again!

Pushed me to far!

what bussiness did you have
pushing words out of my mouth
making up stories just to bother me
then not liking my reply
what was inside was to be kept inside
not to come outside and scar
you made it hard for me to hide
you made me go so far
until this day I was trying hard
to do my job as a friend
I mean with limits that we had
then today you pushed it to end
you and I were less than a friendship
Just people who talk to each other
they talk sometimes and know some details
but they don't understand one another
you know I was planing to keep it that way
then be by your side if you need me one day
but now thats not happening after what's been said
I can't take back what I actually meant
you should have never pushed me to get my feelings out
but to be fair you were trying to hurt me THAT i don't even doubt!!!