Monday, July 16, 2007

With pleasure but just a second...

It would be my pleasure to let you go…It’s all I want to do
It would be great to have my peace… but I have to let you know
Even if it wasn’t the same

Even if it made you blue
Loving you was full of thrills
And it gave me a feeling so pure
I didn’t need you to love me at all
My smiles would catch me… if you let me fall
It was more than a pleasure… to be in love with you
Even if you didn’t know… it was really true
It bugs me to see it becoming a past
When I thought that’s it… I found you at last
But if I found something even you can’t see
How can I ever have it for me?
How can I hold on to a truth unknown?
How can I be in love… with a you that’s not shown?
That is if it is even there
To be frank I’m not sure I am being fair
I know your feelings are less than you show
I know I’m just asking for what you don’t know
I know you don’t love me
I know you don’t care
I know you want to treat me right
You don’t want to be unfair
I know I seem so crazy to you
I know you don’t understand
But loving you was not by choice
It was simply my heart’s demand
And what intrigued my soul even more
Is that it was a feeling never felt before
That feeling at first of total security
Although I knew you loved her with purity
When you told me to hold on and wait
At the beginning I didn’t hesitate
To fall into seas of an unknown fate
But then I got afraid of my shaken state
It’s scary I trusted you from the start
It’s strange that I knew it so deep in my heart
That you would take good care of me
And you told me what I craved will easily be
Maybe that’s why I am holding on
Because of your promise when it all begun
I still believe you when you talked with such confidence
And I am sure it is no coincidence
And although I know all what I just said
I’m still asking should I let it end.
Should I let it fade away from my head… now that it is easy to be just your friend?